Depression is Real!
I contemplated typing about this because it’s so personal, but that’s what makes blogging “real” right? Not too long ago, our family went through some VERY challenging trials (it brings me to tears just thinking about it). I fell into this depression. I say “fell” because that’s what it feels like. You keep falling and falling, digging the hole deeper and deeper, and it feels impossible to get out of. I didn’t feel like doing my makeup or my hair, I didn’t want to leave the house, I just didn’t care anymore. I escaped from life by being on the computer all day long.
After having my 3rd boy and dealing with these challenges we were facing, I became completely overwhelmed. I felt like life was fuzzy – covered by grey clouds – I couldn’t see the light at the other end of the tunnel. I felt like, “what’s the point?” I felt like I couldn’t keep my house clean enough, I couldn’t finish the laundry, I didn’t feel like cooking. I was depressed. I wasn’t suicidal and had no thoughts of hurting my family, but I couldn’t get out of this sad and blue rut I was in.
The recession is hitting most everybody pretty hard. People are becoming overwhelmed and depressed about finances, marital problems, the fear of losing a job and not being able to support their family. I was in denial for a while about being depressed. I thought “That can’t happen to me. I have 3 kids – I’m a mom and a wife. I’m not depressed…it’s just a phase.” WRONG!!!
Once I recognized I was dealing with depression, I wanted it gone. I know many people who are against anti-depressants, but I am here to tell you that when you are depressed, you feel hopeless and sometimes you NEED to take anti-depressants to get going on the right path again. With counseling and the help of anti-depressants, I feel like the clouds have been lifted. I can see the blue skies and sun again. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have hope for the future. I do not plan on being on anti-depressants forever and it is hard for me to say that I do take them, but they helped me to think clearly again.
I am thankful to good friends who stopped by to see how I was doing, friends who offered to watch my kids for me, blogging friends who encouraged me to seek help. Depression is real and everybody is susceptible to having it. With a good support system, counseling, and prayer, anyone can overcome depression! The first step is to recognize it and the second step is to work on overcoming it. Remember, you are not alone.